Fall Getaway 2010!

This past weekend I had the priveledge to go to Fall Getaway! It was soooo amazing! I wasn't going to go because I had to work and had taken the previous weekend off to go camping with my family and felt bad asking for this weekend off. But Pat Mathias said it was no excuse not to ask and alls they could say was no. So I asked and instead of 11-7 shift on friday I worked 11-1 and got the rest of the weekend off! And boy am I glad I did! Fall Getaway was soo much fun. I learned so much and met a lot of great people and made stronger relationships with all the friends I went there with!
One of the best parts was the break out session Brenda Maitke did. It was called the key to thriving in relationships. She talked about conflict resolution and forgiveness. How we need to resolve our conflicts and truly forgive that person. I truly believe that God was speaking to me because in my bible I have these little inserts that have little devotionals on them and I looked down at it and it was talking about the same thing. And then again that night in the main session forgiveness was brought up.
Now for me and the whole conflict thing, I am just really struggling with it. I mean I have tried to resolve things a couple of times, but I don't feel that the feeling was mutual. I guess I just gave up trying, and I guess I'm struggling with if I should keep trying or wait and see if the other person comes to me. I really do feel like God wants me to keep trying, but then again I feel like its pointless? So I guess it's something I'll have to keep praying about and try and figure things out.

A New Chapter

A new chapter has begun in my life. My senior year! How exciting is that?! Its my second year at Itasca Community College as a PSEO student. So when its all said and done I will graduate highschool with my diploma and AA (Associates in Arts degree) Which is my two year degree of all my generals. I've joined CRU (Campus Crusade for Christ) A student lead ministry on campus. I play in the worship team, our first performance is this Tuesday at 7! So I'm excited for that! I've seen God doing some pretty amazing things in my life. He provided me with friends from youth group at school, and I'm meeting a lot of people! I've been trying to keep busy so time will pass quickly! God has blessed me with the best friend I never had before. Micah! He keeps me grounded, keeps challenging me, and is always there for me. He's even my number one math tutor ;~) If I need help I call him up! lol
But one thing I've learned most about this past summer is forgiveness. How do we keep from being bitter and forgiving people? One of the worst things is bitterness. And this summer it was hard for me to stay unbitter and not say or think mean things when I seen certain people. So I prayed and prayed and prayed about it all Summer, everytime I seen the people. But of course me being the human I am struggled. I know it will be an on going battle, but for now, I can see these people and not have mean thoughts or say mean things. I believe I have truly forgiven them. Which is a huge victory.

There is always darkness before the dawn.

I don't think anyone really realizes how dark the night can be. Even though every situation is different, and some seem harder than others; its all still darkness. Even though some seem to be going through a lot harder stuff than others; its all still trials and troubles. But when the Dawn comes, and you can see everything around you, there is sweet peace. Peace that you can get through only one man; Jesus Christ. He's with you through the darkness, and wakes you up at Dawn, showing you he is still there.

I can feel it coming! Summer!!!!

Only 6 weeks of classes, 7 weeks counting finals week. Then we hit SUMMER!!!! Gosh dang I can't wait!!! Flip flops, (which I have already been breaking out) sun, swimming, no school or homework, and getting a tan! I'm so excited!

Love is not a fight

Love is not a place

To come and go as we please

It's a house we enter in

Then commit to never leave

So lock the door behind you

Throw away the key

We'll work it out together

Let it bring us to our knees

Love is a shelter in a raging storm

Love is peace in the middle of a war

And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door

No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

To some, love is a word

That they can fall into

But when they're falling out

Keeping that word is hard to do

Love is a shelter in a raging storm

Love is peace in the middle of a war

And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door

No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

Love will come to save us

If we'll only call

He will ask nothing from us

But demand we give our all

Love is a shelter in a raging storm

Love is peace in the middle of a war

And if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door

No, love is not a fight but it's something worth fighting for

I will fight for you

Would you fight for me?

It's worth fighting for

Love is not a fight, Warren Barfield (Fireproof)

Moving On

Moving on is the best thing anyone can do.
With or without people you thought you loved,
people who you thought were there for you,
people you thought could never be replaced,
and people who always had your back,
then one day you turn around and your back is bare.
Those people probably can never be replaced,
cherish the memorys you have,
enjoy them, and never hate.
God will be with you,
even through the night when theres a big tear stain on your pillow.
Every tear you cry,
God sees.
Everytime you cry his name,
God hears.
Crying isn't a shameful thing,
sometimes you just have to let it out.
God's with you.
And will be always and forever.

Things I've learned.

Where to start? This last summer was so amazing yet so bad... I won't go into any details, but I learned a lot. I have always known that God won't put you through anything you can't handle but boy oh boy I didn't know how much I could handle. I have had a lot of struggle the past couple of months that I still deal with at times. But I know with God's help I will make it to the end! :~) I also had so much fun at times!!! I met a new friend ;~) Who has helped me through all my struggles by telling me to lean on God more. He helped me become stronger and rely on God more than I was.
My family and I started attending West Cohasset Chapel this past summer. Its been sooo great!!! I love going to youth group and playing worship and just learning about God with people my age and just hanging out!